automatic writing . streaming sense and meaning monochrome :
inside an engine idling in greyscale . welcome . switch off, remain alert, thank you. plenty of room here for my own thoughts as Elena begins a negotiation of self/body/space . door creaks . tracking . filing . learning un/learning . we are so conditioned into instrumentalism . I see a dancer negotiate with the sense of body as instrument . trying to let a body be body in a culture of cause effect purpose and cost : extreme measures necessary to break open other space: other-space (outer other space?) . fluidity breaks down – insert an interval, seomra spraoi (room for play

if the model doesn’t work then why persist with it? try something else . it is not a crime to be at rest . slow is the new punk (mary fox: “Speed is the new black.”) . presence: art of being . in and out of another consciousness . is this way up?

tuning . resonating

beginning to dance now : excitement in the system (or is it agitation?) . epic and banal allatonce now here and nowhere . birthing a new reality . I read the abidhamma . midwife matrix genetrix . use of self as a prism . a body dreaming in public . her body . social body . making connections . computing connection

somewhere else now . a new point of assemblage for my perceptions creates a new reality for me . special senses : deepening . a rabbit seesensesmelling predator in the window . reading colour with fingertips . Joyce: seeing fingers . every object has a voice . world talking to itself through me my automatic writing . sidestep over step out of myself . don’t try too hard to make it make sense . it’s not as literal as that . is the world? what does it mean, reality? what does it mean to me:… we are meaning makers : it’s an effort to undo that reflex and let phenomena BE . a new relationship to world world-building . mud . it’s an effort . sense and meaning . pat

elevation . dance : a state of excitement in a system when change becomes possible/necessary/inevitable/natural/effortless . (a hatestorm of projection . a blizzard of critical thought . bandwidth tightening . spectrum of potential contracting) spur the huskies on! we can make camp over the next ridge!!) …brave new alien world of no meaning non sense not this nor that neither but a victory of presence over concept (s) . wounded reality bleeding broken promises on a dancefloor . ghost of a dance dragged out of the wreckage .

getting heavy now, heavy metal heavy : uranium, gelsenium…. radioactive decays a whisper between bodies . it’s not about her dancing it’s about the way we watch. …seeing sense and meaning . it’s about the WAY WE WATCH . reality comes crashing down about our heads and the walls come down and expose our heads to spectral night sky . stars glitter . deep black space hole . wormhole time travel . “I’ll take yr brain to another dimension”: the prodigy . light years later I come out of suspended imagination in time for planetfall : landing : braking . reality whining and whimpering . we use it for fuel . no mercy . humility, grace, simplicity, but no mercy . and no apologies . landed . where are we? now?